…my friend "B"
"B", aka Barbara, lived on the road behind my home in the mountains. She’s a walker, twice a day most days, sometimes with her daughter, sometimes with her grand dog…
She stopped to chat the first few days after we moved in, told me of the couple who’d lived in our home. Told of the fire which had taken the house to the foundation in 2006. She knew them well …
Our conversations, much like Facebook, were snippets of our lives … she talked of her family, her marriage, her husband, we talked of the forest, and she loved it when she saw our RV in the driveway, where she knew we were coming or going.
I’d noticed her slowing pace in the last few years, her frame becoming slighter with age. Today she is 86. The streets of our homes are in the mountains and are daunting to me, and yet she’s on it, walking, nearly every day.
When Covid locked us down I’d still see her out there …. She stopped one day at the end of March and I asked how she was, she said "I’ve just lost my husband, the love of my life, he died, I was with him, but he’s gone..." By now she was in tears, I asked her if I could hug her, she said "please I need it …"
Over the last few years, I learned her story in snippets. She grew up in Illinois, lived in Michigan, and raised a family in southern California. She was first married very young at just 20 years old. She gave birth to 3 children and adopted 2 more. It was a difficult marriage, but she stayed in it for the children. Eventually it ended in divorce as she continued to raise her brood of 5. “B” survived the loss no mother should ever bear, the loss of two of her children. She lost a son to suicide while he was in college and she lost a daughter, Tracianne, to injuries from a car accident when she was in her twenties. We talked of these life events and I shared with her the loss of my brother, to suicide, when we were teenagers...
“B” and I just clicked …. “B” loves being outdoors, her property is fun, quirky, imaginative, and filled with “goodies” … she cares for the weekend homes of her neighbors, she doesn’t ask she just cleans their lots, keeps things neat and tidy, and this too is her life therapy.
As we both knew that we were selling our home, our conversations were tinged with the “leaving” … one day I saw her walk down our driveway, invited her in we talked of our plans, SHE loves our plans, said she’d love to go along.
I’d known by now her mind is slipping, she says it, I can feel it, we talk of it …. I told her last week, I’m coming to your house, with my camera. I’m going to photograph you my friend and I’m going to tell your story, with my camera.
The day before we left the house was the day, I had to go. . . cloudy and dark, after 3pm, but I had to go ….